Scarlett, Scarcity, and Shame

Last Tuesday morning, I made my morning smoothie as I always do: washed and cut the stems off of four strawberries, added half a banana, filled the vitamix almost to the top with greens, added around a quarter cup of blueberries, some vegan protein powder and almond milk. Blend and then pour. I took my sip of my yummy breakfast beverage and. had. to. chew. what. I. thought. was. unblended. greens. Except- it didn’t dissolve. Turns out it was a piece of plastic. Weird. I spit it into a paper towel, shrugged and took another sip. Plastic. I tried a third time (you know what they say about doing things over and over and having the same result. Insanity?) I have no idea what in the world got into my vitamix. Maybe it came from the bag of blueberries? I had to dump the entire thing and start over. As I was doing this hurriedly because now I was rushing for time, I was noticing that I really didn't like the feeling of wasting all of those scrumptious ingredients. It really bothered me. Thoughts like, “Why did you dump that? You could have strained out the plastic and been fine” were running through my mind.

Several hours later, between calls and meetings, I went down to the kitchen and quickly mixed up a tuna salad in a big bowl (I know... mercury and well, gross) and then tossed in the remainder of my kale, brussel sprout salad mix (the kind in the bag that you can get premade at the grocery or Costco). I mixed it all together and went back up in time for a quick zoom and then a pre-determined two-hour work block. I started eating my salad and quickly realized that I must have used an old bag from before my trip to Texas last week. The brussels were brown and it tasted off. AND I kept eating it because I didn't want to waste it and well, Scarlett ate that carrot when she swore off never going hungry again. (I'm not making this up! My ingrained, subconscious programming around not wasting my food will draw upon Gone With the Wind references to shame me into eating days old, browned brussel sprouts.)

And yet, as gross and out of the ordinary as these things were, it didn't ruin my day like it may have in the past. I was able to notice that there were so many little gifts in my day. So many things that went right. Despite it being cold and super windy, I went to my outdoor workout class. (I’m super awesome at bailing on that class - even during my 75 days!) I had really great calls with my clients. And on my way to take my daughter to dance, the sky turned a gorgeous hue of pink and orange, as the sun set behind the Flatiron mountains.

As for the super weird food incidences happening on the same day, looking back I can absolutely see my invitation. One of the first things I learned on my personal development journey that has been a life-changing, miracle creating truth:

Life doesn’t happen to us. Life happens for us.

(I don’t believe that everything happens for a reason. I do know that we can find meaning in everything that happens. We grow. We evolve. We come into greater awareness. We appreciate more. We decide differently, or the same, next time. We forgive. The list goes on.)

When life happens for me, I call these "invitations." It takes curiosity to notice my invitations and to open up to Spirit’s guidance. (Remember what I said last week about curiosity and imagination?)

This is a practice that I learned through my own coaching and of course, I now teach my clients. It is super clear to me that I was being shown how my scarcity mindset is lurking quite powerfully under the surface. I have done so much work on abundance mindset - not just around money, rather abundance of energy, cells in our body, leaves on the trees, love in the universe. If I’m conjuring up a starving Scarlett to force me to eat nasty days old salad, I clearly have some work to do. This is the beauty of self-awareness and personal growth. I don’t want to live with those old, moldy, fear-based thoughts. I want to clear those out to make space to open up all the abundant energies. I’m here for Love and Light. I’m here for noticing all that goes right and saying “yes” to more of that.

What are you saying “yes” to these days? We can’t control the external circumstances of our lives (hello, COVID); however, we can control shifting our thoughts to support us and remind us that we are not only enough, we are 50 trillion cells of Love and Light. I want to invite you to say “yes” to a complimentary 1-hour Courage Session. Just tap the button below to request a time on my calendar. I can’t wait to chat with you soon.